Being a single girl at 26 years of age isn't always easy (although for me it usually is). Sometimes I think Satan tries to sneak in an attack through making me feel lonely. Not only does he make me feel lonely as a single woman, but he likes to make me believe that I don't really have any good friends. He reminds me of how I always struggle to get people to do something and how no one ever invites me to do anything. Note the italics- those are words he throws in my head.
This happened a couple of weeks ago as I was sitting at home on a Friday night with nothing to do. Why was I always at home? Shouldn't people my age be asking me to do something? It seems as though all of my friends always have something to do, but they never invite me to do that something with them. As the tears built up behind my eyes, I ran to my room and let it all out to Jesus. I told him how I was feeling and how I knew these feelings weren't of His Spirit. I let Him hold me as I read His Word and listened to some worship music. He took away those feelings. He is so good. But you know what? He cared more deeply than that! Shortly after expressing my pain to Him, a friend asked me to do something. He really cares!!!
Well, I should know by now that if Satan knows how to get me down, he is surely going to try again! (I once heard someone say that Satan can steal your joy if he can undermine your peace.) Yesterday I woke up with the same feelings of being not loved by my friends. This time these feelings were mixed with a deep desire to have a man in my life who would want to simply spend time with me. I have been watching how my Christian friends who are married have incredible husbands who really care about them and enjoy spending time with them. Why don't I have that? Well, I think Satan knows that I have been praying for God to be preparing a man to fill my "list" of expectations in my future husband. I've been really good about being patient through this time, but the enemy wanted to throw me into a panic. Again, I went to my room and asked God to take these feelings away. He did. Within a couple of hours, I was out walking with a friend and enjoying great conversation and beautiful weather. Not only that, but today a girl I barely know invited me to go to a concert I had been wanting to go to but couldn't find anyone to go with! He really cares!!!
It AMAZES me that the God of the universe, the Creator of everything cares that much about me. I just started thinking about all of the people all over the world who need so much more than for a friend to reach out to them. People need food, healing from disease, clean water, freedom.... and yet He still cares about my heart. He didn't have to do any of that, but the fact is that He did. If He cares that much about me, how much does He care for you?
HE REALLY CARES!!!
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